sNaP-SnAP all over TRAIN trip......

My train journey ~ part one

Tired of thinking ... i jst pack my stuff n asking kiddo either they want to hve a TRAIN trip N hve holiday wth me... They soooo Xcited n never know tat i jst drag them to somewhere that i also x know hows everything ....
After get the ticket.. i keep thinking wat is the reason n why should i make a trip. But till now i x find any reason.
With no experience abt treval wth train ... Kids look Xcited .. but me... really x know how i feel.
Perjalanan ke PANTAI TIMUR really frightened me .. 

i meet up wth one lady.. aged 36y. look so nice in her baju kurung. Her doughter aged 9 seat next to abang. Adik n me sit together. I do asked her few thing abt Train trip. They really look soooo Xcited to go home... wth her 5 kids. She also alone wthout his man. wth the same reason ... 'MY HUBBY IS SO BUZY ' i jst smiled when she tell me tat.

But wat so interesting abt my journey is ... i hve been teling tat TRAIN will be full LOAD coz end week . LIke long vacation n i x know how i can forget about hari RAYA HAJI IS jst around the corner. Means me n kiddo stuck here wthout celebration . WOW...

N yes... at every station we drop ... there is A LOTS of people keep coming in. They never care abt having SEAT in the train. they jst wanna go home... if wthout ticket.. they hve no seat. have to stand all the way journey n some of the hve sit on the floor n wat more surprise me is THEY hve to pid EXTRA wth palnalty... but still they never care.
N wat so sweet is they is frm different  town .... different city ..... but they r soooo kind to each other.. so friendly... help each other...

Why everybody so Xcited to go home..... but why I'm never feel like tat ....

Cinta ... KETAWA & AIRMATA

Cinta ....

cinta ketawa dan airmata ..
adalah rempah kehidupan aku dan dirimu ..
sering kali aku tertawa dengan gurauan mu
sering kali aku bahagia dengan cintamu
tersenyum ... ku lakarkan senyuman yang manis disaat aku menyebut namamu ... dan senyuman ku makin melebar saat kau memanggil namaku ....aku bahagia menjadi kekasihmu .. menjadi pendamping mu.... aku bahagia kerana kamu menyintai aku ... menyintai aku kerana diriku ini ... sebagaimana diriku ini ....

dan .... airmata ku mengalir disaat kau melukakan hatiku ... pedih .. sungguh aku tak tahan ... kepedihan menusuk jantungku ...

wahai kekasihku
tahukah dirimu.... bahawa aku sedih tanpa dirimu...
jiwaku mati tanpa kasih mu
kenapa tergamak kau luka kan hatiku
tergamak kau membohongi diriku ini
apa pun alasan mu ...
aku amat amat terluka... tersangat

if we had another chance ......

~@~@~@~@~

kisah hidup

Lamanya aku tidak menulis... Masa berlalu pergi begitu sahaja..
Setiap saat detik & ketika... pasti ada kisah hidup yang menyinggah ..
Ada yang manis... dan tak kurang juga kisah sedih dan pilu...
Ada yang membuatkan aku ketawa.... dan ada yang membuatkan aku menagis
Ada yang membuatkan aku tersenyum sendiri dan ada pula yang membuatkan air mata ini tidak berhenti menitis..... mengalir dan tidak berhenti....
Tapi... itulah ertinya hidup ini..
Suka dan duka silih berganti....
Tiada apa yang dapat aku ubah... kerana takdir yang mendatang sudah suratan dari ilahi..
Apa yang mampu aku lakukan ialah bertahan... berusaha untuk tidak menagis... Gagahi dugaan yang mendatang... tempuhi segalanya.... kerana aku tahu ... aku sedang di uji dan akan terus diuji selagi aku bernafaz dan selagi aku mengaji hambanya yang terpilih...

Segala kisah suka & duka hidupku... menjadi nadi perjalanan hidupku yang seterusnya...
Sekurang2nya aku belajar sesuatu dari setiap yang berlaku....

Latter's to JULIET ....

' looking for a love on the sky '

ITALY .... negara yang indah..
full of LOVE .... it's a FACT ...
n i'm sure it's sooooo True ....

William ... or JACK ...
Juliet or Rosa ...

if i was born as Rosa ...
n i have chance  to b love by JACK .....
n i'm sure .... my life is soooooooooooo like a smell
of roses at every day... every moment..... n at every nite..

but in tis life ....
i was born as a me .. MALIZA
i was soooooo lesss of LOVE ..
since kids.. i have to fight for my living..
LOVE is not a matter ... wat we need to do is to
live our life...
for the best n better...


i do admit tat i never believe in love... ( long2 time ago.... )
i never believe wat in the movie....
but i do stay n watch romance movie...
specially when i was watching alone....
it's sooooooo nice to b in love...
specially when u know u in love with the right person...

LOVE ... its what u believe
if u have desire ...
if u passion......
n if u really work out for what u want .....

U WILL HAVE IT IN UR ARM ..........

tats wat i learn when i'm watching 'latter frm juliet'
love is always there ...
if there have a love before.... mst b u still have it now .....
believe in wat u believe...
b brave... like wat Sophie did ....
she have if n how ...  but then she decide to used if n how side by side..
n she answer all the question...
n then she make her mind .....

tats help me sooooooo much!!!!

Rindu...... mengapa harus ada .....

R.I.N.DU
Mengapa hatiku merindu?
Haruskan aku rindu ....
Rindukah dia pada diriku ?

Aku ..
Menanti dan setia menunggu disini ..
sedangkan DIA ... entah dimana??
Pastikah dia DISANA merindui aku... Seperti aku
MERINDUI dirinya ...

Why ... why HE so EASY make me WAITING like tis?
Coz he KNOW i LOVE him?
COZ he know i CAN wait ...
why??
why??


COZ i promise to wait????
is tat because of tat???

the WOLFMAN

why WOLFMAN ... i love tis movie. i never watch it before.. but today i spend some time watch tis movie. Story about LOVE between a beautiful gal wth a beast.Gwen Still LOVE Lawerance evan know HE was the BEAST who wanted by VILAGER . She tried so many way to save him. She LOve him wthout regret. Moral of the story - Women alwayz GIVE n trust her man even his man IS not a perfect man for her. Wit LOVE n HOPE she will alwayz be by his side ... til death give them a part .......

APRIL FOOL

APRIL FOOL.... ha..ha..ha.. catch u!!! mmmmmmmmmm...... i got so many april fool tis year .. really.... i never lied to u!!! it's a true.... vry true story ...
2 days bfore ... i hve BEEN in the middle of miss understanding among MY BEST FRIEND ... like one of my friend write in one of our picture together .... 'r we friend' ...? how u feel ya... crapppp!!! after a while i realizes .... tats a life n the way to live right now .... N i'm sure tis is the best way to knw all abt ur frdz ... n frm there we know who is ur friend .... n i will never regret n asked ALLAH why its hapend..... it is wat it is ..... go..go..go....

N yesterday ....date 01-04-11 .....a very surprise happend to me once again!!!
i wanted to surprise some one ... by sign up at another website.. planning going to to asked TAT SOMEONE ... sign in after me .... i do take 2 days to set up the page!!! its not too hard to do actually.. but i was doing it in between doing all my final report for my bossssssss...

teng..teng..tengggggg... surpriseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... TAT SOMEONE already have the account!!! n TAT someone already hve follow a few person... I do love few place TAT someone follow... the news..the sport....but i do surprise wth wat TAT SOMEONE follow toooooooo...... OOPPSSSSSSS
who got who? Finally ... i'm make mistake one more time.... is tat really hard to trust people!! I do trust TAT SOMEONE wth all MY HEART!!!! but ....... ohhh noooooooooooooooo...... :(


today ......
i try to b big hero.... not really big hero...Jst try to get all the HARD thing out frm my mind.. try to do something tat i wanted to do long long time ago!!! wat?? offcouse u x know wat i want to dooooo.... u never asked me!!! but... i like to let u know wat i'm doing today....
i ride a horse!!! again!!! ha..ha..ha... big n huge!!! i start dreamingggggggggg... as usual... fly over the scene ... i forgot tat i already leave all my activity before tis.... last time i ride a horse is abt 5 year ago!!! can all of u imagine tat wat hapend to me?

nooo...noooo...n noooooo... ha..ha..ha.... i x control the HORSE!!! n wat hapend??? i'm sure u know wat hapend...
i was fall n hve been pull by the horse... OMG!!! my back... sooooooooo pain!!!!! lucky he not ran so fast n i hve been safe!!!LOL

Not serius injurt.... but i do tay at PMC abt 3 hours... to clean all the scar at my back.... lucky i wear a helmet if not... i might lost my memories right now ........ hrummppppp.... n i thinks thats more better if i lost my memories.... i'm jst tired to remember all the memories ....

it's hurt....... but i hve to SMILE.... :)

prove of LOVE a.k.a the POWER of LOVE

We alwayz talk abt LOVE ... every time... every hour .. every day n nite ...
BUT .. is tat the only things we need to talk all the time? To me ... i do let 'HIM' know how much i LOVE him .... I do tell My kiddo .. adik and abang ... 'LOVE U' at almost every day ... when they wake up ... when they give me something .... i love to tell them tat -i love u- But why ?

One of my friend tell me - No need to tell them all the time ... they sure know U love them ...
Another friend told me - Love ur self first dear ..... No one will love u like u do love them ....

To me .. i love to show all my feeling ... maybe i should not to tat. People might sick when know i love him to much... maybe my kids feel shy when their friend know abt it... they might tell to my kiddo .... oooooooooo look!! the mummy boy is here ... N to the one I LOVE ... i know how much u stuck on me .... coz i keep teling I LOVE U ...... maybe it's look a like u have been control by me..
sometime i forgot ... love make peole TRAP sometime ... n i do forgot tat u need same space for u to breath .... jst like a tree ... need air more than water ....


LOVE- it's not only to when we stay together .... i feel all the LOVE when u leave me at home while u drive to work .... or while u stay at work n i stay at kitchen cook for u ...
n I DO FEEL YOUR LOVE when U ................. jst disappear like you alwayz did!!!

butterfly

Day n Nite never fail to VISIT me... some time i'm not realieze ... either i was in DAY TIME or NITE TIME..... People ... stuff ... all over me ... I hardly breathing sometime ... feel so HURT deep inside MY heart ...

I do my best for everything ... i show all my LOVE ... i give ALL MY HOPE .... I share all my DREAM .... but who am I to get it all .... coz i jst a butterfly ....

butterfly connot go far ... fly not too hight ... no so strong fighter ... when the time come .... U gone ...... jst know who u are .... jst a POOR butterfly .......

when we know we should go .......

it's really hard to do..... feel like all the meat frm bone is already melt. Can u imagine how dead people working on the street? How it's look ? OMG ... i really can't imagine it ..
last time i used to walk happily .... i have a vry sweet smile on my face ... but day after day everything jst change ... i dont realize how it's happend.... BUT still i hve to walk...

LIFE .... is not easy to face it . Wat we got is not so beautiful like we dream about ... but IT IS WAT IT IS ....we have to take it either we like it or not.

DREAMs .... is so nice to dream.... n i wish i can dream all the time. dream... dream..dream... all i have to do is dreammmmmmmmmmmmmm.... nice song.. BUT ... when u wake up frm dreaming...
u will feel all the pain!! U will never imagine how. It's goes till ur bone!!! It's realy painful. No pain killer will help u.

Wakes up ... or in other world be realistic . How hard its be... how hurt u r .. but u have to stay alive n live in real world.

p/s - i really feel the PAIN ... but i know i have to walk n will WALK n have to WALK .... i will walk n walk n never stop walk ... if i fall .. n my knee is HURT n bleeding ... i will walk again ..
n if i fall again ... n i hve my leg break ... i will used stick n will walk again .... n if i fall again ... n both of my leg is break ... n i know i cannot walk anymore ..... i will stay quietly ... will never wake up again ....... jst stay till the last of my breath ......

RULES OF LOVE .... my thinking ....

'i'm a silly girl ... N yesss.... i will b silly girl forever... WINK!!WINK!!WINK!!!
i love to used tis sentence when i was angry or try too make him think back abt wat he already did to me.. or wat have i done to him... LOL

some time we need to act like we stupid or silly jst to make PERSON tat we LOVE know HOW MUCH WE CARE ABT THEM.. sometime time... weather...season ... might cause a lots of MISS UNDERSTANDING among LOVER... but .. if there is HAVE LOVE in between 2 LOVER... nothing will happend!!! trust me...

tats wat happen to me n MY LOVER. Coz we LOVE each other... nothing can change tat feeling.. I admit sometimes feel tired wth all the argue n miss understanding... n sometime miss communication... but all i know is..... I LOVE HIM ... n off couse i do know n feel his LOVE for me too.... He jst PERFECT for me.. ONLY for me... N one one else will understand him like i did... WINK ... am i right sayang??? KISSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.....

to all lover outside there...
pls know ur LOVER n KNOW abt ur self tooo... PLS dont asked people to love U if u dont know how to love ur self. When u love ur self n u will know how to love ur LOVER gud.... coz sometimes we dont realise tat we know nothing abt ur self n its might made you dont know how to behave n we do hurt each other by tat...!!! tats a veryyyyyyyyyyyyyy BAD things!!!!



p/s- don't forgot to learn how to make ur LOVER happy... wth the small surprise.. n sweet note.. ur lover mst b so vey touching n its will grow the LOVE to each other tooo..... ( tis NOTE for MY sayang tooooo... wink ;) )


Love Letter from WiddlyTinks.com

C.I.N.T.A

C.I.N.T.A .... What is all about. it's really hard to describe abt it....
it's hve no color... No flavor... no shape ..no look ...its jst a feeling
tats only u can understand it..

LOVE can make u smile... love can give u strange ... give some energy ... its like u hve a vry gud multivitamin . LOVE can make u grow ... never ever LOST your LOVE.

If u hve found a LOVE ... n u know tat she /he is the only one who can make u happy.. the only one who can make u crazy .... n if u know u cannot leave a life without him / her.. pls dont waste ur time.. go n get her / him . Never ever let something stupid be in the middle of both of you..
if tat hapend ..... n u let it happens n never try to stop it.... u will regret for whole ur life.. coz love is something u connot find when u keep searching.... n u cannot get it back when u already stop believe on it...

to me ... love him is so special. coz he make me know my self.. make me know wat i want. make me believe in wat i feel n doing.the most important is I LOVE TO B IN LOVE WTH HIM....

note for my sayang..... wth kiss

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2011

Lama masa berlalu... i really don't realize how fast it's moving...
still feel like there is nothing go on...

it's already 2011.. n febuary.. wow!!!
really can't imagine hows the day come n go jst like tat!!!!

Hrrrmmmmmmmmmpppp.... wat i want to erite also i x know at all... it's jst like sooooooooo empty.. i x get the picture of it.....

But i love to write... to write something to share or to full fill my free time... i'm not so free actually!! but i feed up to do wth i hve to do right now!!!!
why ya? mmmmmmm.... i'm working at the same place for past 11 year. NOthing change.... still wth same people in the same office... till i know wat n how they look a like.. I'm thinking abt to make a move frm here... try to find another job... looking for new environment.. but at every time i do try..... i do think back abt my people tats i'm going to leave... n abt people tats i'm going to meet than!!! wow!!! complicated ya!!! so hard to leave them coz...... i used to b wth them.... i know how they look a like.... every one of them... my boss... my madam... both their son... my office mate .. izu a.k.a my sis n my best frd... linggam.. juan... sam... n others frm other department... Sidah.. palwan... mmmmmmmmm..... WAT should i do??? stay???
oh nooooooooooooooooooooo...... i x get the answer....

but actually... tats not really border me... wat i hve in my mind right now is hard to write it out..
coz first off all .. i need to know wat i want n wat to do then.
Hrummmppppppppppppp...... wat i want ya????
should i make a list?
or should i jst keep it in my mind....
welll................. i think better i make a list... atlist i can work on it... hi..hi..hi....
mmmmmmmmmm....... lets start make a list!!!! YEY!!!!!