Friday, September 25, 2009

PULANG BERAYA ~ FERI... Desa tercinta





Pulang beraya adalah sesuatu yang pasti bagi penghuni kota yang asalnya dari kampung..... seulu mana pun datangnya dia, pasti hatinya membuak2 dan meronta ronta bila mengenangkan raya tampa kampung dan tampa keluarga belahan jiwa........

Begitulah aku... Setelah hampir tiga tahun aku membawa diri.. membawa rajuk yang lara.. membawa hati yang luka .... namun kerinduan pada ibu serta adik2 mengatasi segala yang terpendam dijiwa.Hatiku menjadi rawan,aku tak keruan... keinginan untuk memeluk ibu tercinta membuatkan aku melupakan parut luka yang masih berdarah...

Aku pulang pada pagi raya... bukan pagi tapi tengah hari.....Debaran penuh terasa , masakan ibu mengamit kepulanganku... walau pun pada paginya aku masih disini... masih dalam pertimbangan....Namun, aku tidak berdaya menahan kerinduan dan kesyahduannya......

DAN kepulangan ku memang dinanti , ibu tercinta bertungkus lumus menyediakan segala juadah kegemaran ku, Perjalanan selama 2 jan 1/2 tidak terasa , anak 2 ku yang nakal sampai terlena... adik2 ku yang berjaya membuka langkah kepulangan ku juga terdiam... menghayati episod hidupku yang jarang2 aku sampaikan kepada mereka... bagiku... kisahku ... hanya milikku.......

Thursday, September 24, 2009

hanyalah kenangan..............


Time goes n past jst like that…. Never turn back…… the only left is a memories….
And the memories always stay there….. as long as u never forgot abt it….

And me… always walk thru the memories… it’s hard for me to let go all the memories… sometime I cannot move anywhere just because I stuck in “PAST LIFE” emmmmmmm…..

i try very hard to forgot the past!! I try to start a new chapter, New story, New People..
I try n try n finally…. I did it!! I have found my new life… I have started a new chapter in my life… I enjoy it very well… I learn all new things. I feel so wonderful n I was very happy … happy all the time…………

But… there is something we have to agree about life!!
New chapter or old chapter….. there is still have story behind the chapter…
U like it or not….. u have to deal wth it……….

There is life!! And once again I STUCK in MEMORIES………………..

Wednesday, June 24, 2009















Sayangku Erica....


"G.. boleh tak ujung minggu ni kalau kita balik kampung...Aku ngat nak anta my doughter..." rayu aku pada sahabat karibku... Suzi. Malas rasanyer nak naik bas, leceh lah...



Banyak tu baju anak dara aku tu......Emmmm.. mengenangkan aku hendak menghantar pulang anak dara aku kepangkuan keluarga asalnye... walaupun berat n sakit ati aku memikirkannye...



namun apa yang boleh aku lakukankan....



Bukan kerana aku sudah tak sayang lagi padanya... Tuhan sahaja yang tahu betapa pedihnya hatiku setiap kali aku terfikirkan hal ini...



aku terpaksa, kedua ibu bapanya mendesakku supaya "memulangkan kembali"anak mereka yang aku jaga sewaktu mereka bercerai dua tahun setengah yang lalu......



Memulangkan kepada mereka bererti memisahkan ERICA dengan kedua anakku... Sedangkan mereka membesar bersama. Kalau anak ku yang sulung , Si ABANG itu dia bisa mengertikan keadaan RICA... tapi tidak anak bongsuku, si ADIK... pasti dia tercari-cari si KAKAK... mereka sudah terbiasa bersama... MAKAN..MINUM..MAIN..bah kan mereka berdua teman bergaduh!!! Adik dan Kakak bagaikan kembar yang tak boleh dipisahkan..



Bagaimana mereka tega merebut Rica daripadaku setelah sekian lama.... Rica subah sebati dengan keluargaku......Tidak kah mereka terfikirkan perasaan ku ...perasaan anak2 ku.... kenapa mereka begitu TEGA!!!



Aku tahu mereka keluarga kandung Erica, tapi selama dua tahun setengah aku bersama Rica , makan.Bagaimana aku bisa melalui hari-hariku tampa Erica disisiku...

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

My Senior TURN to My Relative

Hi Guy!!! This is my senior... CAHAYA BINTI MUHAMAD...( sorry kak Cha.... i hope i spell it correctly... ) hi..hi... We never meet after she finish HIGH School.... abt in year 1994... Oh GOD!!! what a wonderful surprise!!!

We have meet again at face book... a few month ago... I'm so happy when first time she call me after she accept my friend request!!! What a wonderful moment!!!! i miss her so much!!!

We close!! really close!! Coz she is my senior.. We stay in same DORM.. i have to stay at hostel when i was in High School.... Sometimes we share bed also... ha..ha.. specially after we listen to GHOST STORY!!! ha..ha... it's really make me remember the other sister...
Where r they....


where is kak shima...kak wana..kak haza..kak effa... ( she the one who like to act like a ghost!! she have vry long hair..... kak effa... rindu sangat!!!! ) I try to find all my x hostel girl.. doesn't matter my senior... my junior or same batch wth me..... sure HEWOK giler when we meet up!!!

Ya ALLAH....izinkan lah kami bertemu kembali... aku pohon padamu Ya Allah... pertemukan lah kami semua.... Amin... Kerana aku teramat rindu pada semua kawan - kawan dan para sahabat ku... Ya Allah... kau lindungilah mereka semua.... Berikan lah kebahagian buat semua para sahabat ku...... Kerna susungguhnya hanya kau yang Maha mengetahui.... Amin....


Emmmm... berbalik kepada kak Cha n Topic nya ~ my senior TURN to My Relative..... this is the story..... jeng..jeng..jeng..... last Saturday 30/05/09.... very history date!!! i should mark in my dairy.... ha..ha..ha....

i have invitation to wedding ceremony frm my father in law side. I never know this family... The grandny of the bridegroom is cousin of my father in law.. Kak cha is married to younger brother of the father of the bridegroom... that 's mean she is the auntie of the bridegroom!!!

Can u guys imagine how we look a like on that day... Oh GOD!!! Susah nak explain.... betul...

First time i saw her.. i so surprise... cannot be her, i try to find my handphone... but my eyes keep staring at her.... then i heard something... i heard she call my name...

Ya Allah... Masa tu Tuhan jer tau.... I jast go to her n hug her.... I miss her so much!! And surprise!! Surprise!! Everybody frm her side keep asking what and what!!!!

that's the story... my senior turn to my relative!!!! what a beautiful live!!! Amin....

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

~ Memories @ kenangan

Setiap insan di bumi ini mempunyai cerita yang tersendiri… tak kira dari benua mana pun dia berada dan tak kira dari benua mana pun dia datang…

Kisah seseorang itu pasti mempunyai perbezaan antara satu sama lain… Namun ada sesetengan cerita seseorang itu menyerupai cerita insan lain.Kadang kala kisah yang dilalui oleh kita… dilalui oleh insan lain juga……

Emmmm…. Inilah lumrah alam… cerita silih berganti. Datang dan pergi begitu sahaja.Ada yang berulang…. Ada juga yang terus berlalu tampa sebarang kesan…..
Nanum… aku pasti setiap cerita yang datang dan silih berganti itu, mempunyai kenangan yang tersendiri….


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Kenangan…. Memories… always there , the sweet , the sour , the salty , always mix together… and it’s become a vry sweet things to remember… n never let it go… always in our mind….

How to get memories , emmm… we must have a beginning of the story….. when the story start… the memories also start at that moment….What we go tru is what is going to b a memories , either it’s bad or gud memories is always b a memories….


Emmmm….. sometimes I wonder why should I think about the past things…live in memories … the answer is it’s always there for me , there have a so many things in my past life… I have been tru so many story… so many chapter…. N there have so many people involve in my life too…. There is another chapter after another chapter…
Every chapter have their own story…. Every chapter have memories….


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It’s not easy to start a new chapter in our life, We have to be strong… we have to have faith!! We have to look forward..…. planning n do preparation … we have to be ready in mental and physically…. I’m sure sometimes when we reach to a new chapter , we still remember what happened in the other chapter… it’s normal… we can used all method in last chapter to b use in next chapter… off cause to b the best form the other chapter…. It’s really like the circle ….. Where ever we go we have to have a stop point!!! It is our destiny....

Monday, May 18, 2009

~ MASAK ~

Masak….?

Apa itu masak… or… cooking? What’s cooking…?
Siapa yang akan masak or who going to cook?

Persoalannyer….And the question is….?

Adakah setiap orang itu punya kegemaran untuk memasak?...
Eeeemmm did everybody like to cook?
Can every body cook well?
Eemmmmmmmmmmmm……. Susah nak jawab!!!
Yes!! It’s hard to answer… coz not everyone are born to b a cooker? Am I right?

Well……
Sebenarnya masak memerlukan ketulusan hati dan rasa cinta yang mendalam terhadap apa yang hendak dimasak dan untuk siapa ia dimasak…..

Ya..!! it’s true… we have to have a very deep feeling to what we going to cook n to who we going to cook.. the cooker and the food have to have a connection ….
Have to have a sensor of touching….. well… in other words they both have a strong feeling toward each other…..
How to make what we cook look gud… test gud… and how to make it a live to all the eater…. Emmmm… rumit ni.. very complicated!!

Rasanya susah nak jawab… Kalau kita Tanya chef pun rasanyer dia akan jawab like this…
“ it’s depend on the ingredient that we used… to get a better tasted we have to used a gud n the best ingredient …” ha..ha..ha… very schema…


Entahlah….
To me, masak or cook is something can bring me happiness… I can cook while I feel sad!!! It’s turn me happy…..
But I also cook when I was happy… n it not turn me down!! It’s bring me more.. n more happiness .

Memasak is a part of my life!! I ‘m not full time house wife!! But that’s not a reason to me to avoid my self frm kitchen!!! I love to spend all my day at my kitchen….
(of couse I love my room also….!!! N I love to spend my day there tooo…)

Many other people cook for leaving… they have to cooked!! No choice!! Mothers cook for kids, Wife cooked for husband!! Daughters cooked for parent….. chefs cooked for the customer………

But .. how many of us .. how many of them… cooked without reason…..
I ALSO DON'T KNOW THE ANSWER..... ^__^

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

~ mother ~

To all of my Mother.... Mak Am , Mak Ani and to a very lovely mama... mak wan... I would like to wish all of u Happy Mother's Day!!!! The greatest love that i have frm both of u all... i really like to thank you to all of my mother...

Mak Am...
Terima kasih kerana menerima Eja seadanyer.. Sesungguhnye Eja menyayangi mak sama seperti mak ani & mama.. Tak ader bezenyer.... sampai bila2 pun... sampai kehujung nyawa sekali pun...Percayalah...





MAK , ibu ku yang tercinta.... u r everything to me.... Perjuangan mu melahirkan dan membesarkan amat2 bermakna dalam hidup ku.... pengorbanan mu amat2 aku hargai. As ur doughter i promise u i will give all my life to u... i do everything jst for u....MAMA, terima kasih Liza ucapkan kerana memberi kasih sayang yang tidak berbelah bagi!! Walaupun Liza cuma penganti arwah adik 'Ayu'...
Tidak pernah sedikit pun kasih sayang itu kurang.... i love u too mama!! No body can take ur part in my heart!
ibu - ibu ku semua.... u r QUEEN OF MY HEART

Saturday, April 18, 2009

CInTa @ LoVe

Cinta?
aku pasti semua orang faham dan tahu makna C.I.N.T.A
tapi aku pasti setiap antara kita punyai pandangan berbeda ttg CINTA.Love Myspace Comments
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Bagi aku, Cinta itu amat unik , sukar dimengertikan... kalau dahulu aku sukar utk menerima cinta...
aku sering menolak cinta yang hadir buat buat diri ku....
bagi ku tiadak ada sudahnya CINTA itu.....
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Bagi ku CINTA itu satu penyusahan...
Bagi ku CINTA itu hanya satu permainan perasaan.....
Aku menghalang keras diri ku untuk jatuh CINTA.....

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Namun aku silap...
Tidak Semua CINTA itu palsu...
Tidak semua CINTA itu harapan kosong...

Dan Aku akui bahawa CINTA itu memang Indah!!

Terima Kasih CINTA!!

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sahabat


'Sahabat..... friend... dhost... pang yau... ..

what evar u call it ... it's a same things...


Emmmm...

Bukan semua orang suka berkawan...

Tidak semua orang suka bersahabat...

Tidak juga semua orang suka menjalinkan persahabatan..................


Aku...

Aku pasti aku adalah seorang sahabat yang setia,penyanyang dan juga antara sahabat yang memahami............

aku sendiri hairan g mana seseorang itu boleh melupai sahabatnya sendiri...........

agak tidak dapat diterima oleh akal ku... seandainya seorang sahabat itu melupai sahabatnya sendiri...atas apa alasan sekali pun...
Bagi ku... setiap persahabatan yang terjalin itu amat-amat suci dan murni... eh mcm iklan minyak masak pulak....!!!
Apa2 pun... aku mendoakan kebahagian buat semua sahabat2 ku yang berada diluar sana.Semoga kalian berbahagialah hendaknye...'

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Gambar2 kenangan.......






friendship never end!!!




emmmm.....
i'm really surprise....
after 13th year... i have a chance to c my one of my best frd.... i never had seen her about 13y...
wow....

what a big surprise!!
she never change...
she's cute...
she funny...
she happy ending story...... ha..ha..ha...
i miss her so much

benar kata orang.....
true friend ship is not because of we keep calling each other
everyday.......
and it's not lasting also when we meet up everyday.....
as long u have a love toward ur friend....
n
benar2 ihklas dalam perhubungan........


perpisahan kami adalah disebabkan oleh time,waktu dan ketika.... alah...
susah nak explain....




emmmm..... persahabatan yang kami bina adalah dari keikhlasn hati kami...
and i really thanks to Allah coz still give me a chance to meet her n spend my day with her.....
Syukur, alhamdullillah.....



Ya Allah Ya Robbi.....
Berkatilah persahaban kami sehingga ke akhir hayat ku nanti,
amin.. ya rabbal alamin.....

Sunday, March 1, 2009


Erti Hidup* Meaning Of Live


in this life.....

we always have hopes...

we always have dreams.......

we always have wish.............


WE HAVE TO THANKFUL...

WE HAVE TO APPRECIATED

we have to move on...
we have to SMILE......







Monday, February 9, 2009

2009

Dalam meniti hidup ini, Pelbagai peristiwa mendatangi kita...Ada suka ..Ada duka...


There is a Lot's of things we really don't understand.....


We don't know why it's happened...........




Time came n goes...


never wait... never turn back.... emmmm................................... More we think .. it's become more worse.... but if we dint think it's become more worse..... So? what should we do?

Thursday, January 29, 2009

my EROBIC group


Hey..... let's Aerobic with us!!
emmmm........ this picture have been taken on jun 2008. This is my group...
all the laddies frm KG MELAYU, Sg Buloh... we actually invited to Tadika Kemas while they do sport day...
we ERO with the student..parent & teacher... n also the guest!!
WELL.... we have fun...
But....
now day we no more already.. we already separate....
but i really miss my group...
n i wish we can be back together.....


Friday, January 23, 2009

Hamper Chinese New Year!!!

Xong Xi Fa Chai













Well..... as usual... buy hampers & oranges for dealers.......



this is the time we really wait for.....


ha..ha...


happy hour...




since morning till finish office hour...




oranges!! oranges!! oranges!!! ...



Monday, January 19, 2009

My Uncle







Pak Tam Zai... My uncle who live here about 12year.... but this is the first time i come n visit him.....
emmm..... he working with Plantation.. palm oil. I love to stay here.The weather is vy cool in the morning....
hie wife.. My Mak Tam also working here.
they have two kids.
the elder is Muiz (12y) and shamin (6y)...
hope one day i can come n visit them again!! i hope next time i can stay more then 1 day!!....

Muazam Syah




my o my....!! muazam syah...!! mak ai... jauh rupanyer....


i really think it's about 2 to 3 hour frm my hse.... emmm....


actually...


my bro who drive the car got problem... mental problem!! ha..ha.. he fight with his girlfriend!!!


so.... he drive so slow n keep typing SMS to his girlfrd!!!


U know what !! we almost accident!!!




Then, i asked him to stop !!! he stop the car n ask me to drive!! OMG!! i feel like to kill him!!


how i can drive his car....!! he using PAJERO and it's a manual car....!!




He said he sleepy!! his eyes cannot open already !! so... i have no choice!!! i have to drive the car!! i'm not going to sleep there..... on no!! no..!




Well...


at first i really scared!!... i drive the car vry slow... about 60km/h. Ha..ha...


it's really funny!!




Emmm....


there is one more i can't forget about this night!!... there is a "road block".


OMG!!! What should i do... .....




But... i really thanx god!! the police man vry kind to me!! He asking me where to go!! Coz it's a bit late to me to drive... I JUST told him that my bro was sick and i have to drive the car... i also told him that we going to my uncle house....




It's really surprise!! he let me go.....




well...... i drive about 2 hour then i reach my uncle hse!!! it's really dark + scary way...!!!


and i really don't know how i can drive that car... i keep asking my self how did i drive more then 20 minute.... coz i normaly drive my car ( auto car ) frm hse to work it's about 15m only!!!

~ my loves ~

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