Sunday, June 8, 2014

new story .. new begining ...

lama dah aku x singgah sini . Bz ngan mcm2. FB lah.. Ig lahhh ... PUHMM lah .. kids lah ... promo mee sanggul lah ... mee zafran lah... telekung lahhh.. tudung lahhh ... sambal itam lahhhh... Wahhhhh look like i realy bz ya??? 

do i have time to write again? Writing is my interest. i love to write .. to let it out wat i have in my mind . but sometime ... i have no time to b me ... i have no time for sleeping tooo.....


i have tis blog since 2003 or maybe 2004 ...  not much i wrote here. x know wat to share ... but now i wanna start it again... last time i dream abt to publish my writing. i do wrote a love story between Sebastian n Sarah. Tats my imagination of two people wth 2 diffrent religion . two different country.. but ONE feeling ... LOVE.

i believe love can do everything .. Love have power like a magic. I believe Sara Love can Made Sabestian leave everything he have ... but end of the story ... i realies ... there is more other things tat important to Sabestian ... his God n His believe . i b not fair to him. i jst put my self to Sarah . We know tat love n women can make man will do everything . but its wrong ... its not fair .. Sabestion have his own life.. own believe ... As a writer .. i want a very gud ending to my story .. i want to make Sarah n Sabestian stay together in a very strong love to each other ... 

LOVE is not all about what Sarah feel to Sabestian...  but still i have to consider what Sabestian feel for Sarah. If Sarah have to choose between Sabestian n her religion ... so do Sabestian . 


both of them love each other .. but in other way others love them both. Sarah have her family who realy broken . She is dreaming abt to have Mr Nice guy coz she is living wth her hubby who was born not to be her dreams guy . He gud n so nice but he so cold like an ice . He have no worries abt Sarah . coz he know Sarah is can take care of everything ... 
Sabestian .. my nice guy , also have broken family. His wife is not lovely women like Sarah . She very tuff and she can do everything n anything. She not so gals like Sarah . but she is wat she is .. n tats not a reason for Sabestian to walk away frm situation. He still the man of the house .. n Sarah still the lady of her hse .

what make i think i can used the broken marriage to make Sarah n Sabestian stay together? i try to make Sarah is gud to Sabestian n do make Sabestian gud for Sarah. but end of the story i still dont know how to make them b together .. they both hve issue. Sarah muslem n Sabestian Chirstian . 

i really want to make tis story like the other story. yes.. i want to let people know Sabestian convert to muslem n he happy doing tat for the Sarah .. Coz Sarah is his dreams gal. He want to be wth women who need his care.. need his love... Sarah also want to be wth Sabestian.. She need man who can love n take care of her ... but Sarah will never want to make Sabestian convert bcoz she know he will never do tat .. 

Love is jst love .. its come n go. but Sarah LOVE Sabestian vry much .. she let Sabestian stay wth wat he believe since he was born. She pray for Sabestian happines. When she find up tat Sabestian find a women which same Chiristian Like him... she let Sabestian go... n pray for his hapiness . To her.. when Sabestian happy ... she b happy tooo... she will alwayz b the best best gal to Sabestian.. alwayz n forever.


the End ~ 


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Wednesday, May 29, 2013

My Family❤

Family.... Kolebrasi antara ayah .. Ibu dan anak2. Kadang2 kita tidak sedar betapa pentingnya keluarga. Setiap satu dari ahli adalah pelengkap antara satu sama lain. Bila kita bersatu Akan utuhlah ikatan itu.. Namun... Andai kata kita berpisah... Maka cacatlah jalinan y telah kita ada...
Aku... Punya keluarga y kecil. Aku as mummy .. Mr A as daddy .. Anak sulungku, Azrul Ezwan as Abang n anak bongsuku as adik. Walaupun keluarga ku Ibu kecil... Tp percayalah.... Betapa payahnya untuk aku membinanya.. Berbagai onak dan duri telah aku tempuhi selama tempoh usia perkahwinan ku. Aku sendiri bagai tak percaya y aku masih bersama2 hingga ke hari ini. Since 2006 aku dan Mr A mengalami pergolakan dlm rumah tangga kami. Ketidak sefaham dan masaalah ekonomi y melanda membuatkan kami berdua menjauh antara satu sama lain. Ganguan emosi dan juga orang sekeling kami membuatkan kami hanyut dlm kemelut y berpanjangan. Begitu payah untuk bersatu... Kerana terluka ... Dan terus membiarkan luka itu terus berdarah.
Namun.. Keajaiban berlaku... Dengan izin Allah... Kami bersama kembali. Berdua berusaha untuk anak2 y semakin hari semakin membesar.. Kerana aku tidak mahu anak2 membesar seperti aku dulu.

Membesar tanpa perhatian dr emak n Abah ... Aku tidak mahu anak2 mengalami gangguan perasaan seperti mana yang aku hadapi.. Demi mereka... Aku berjanji akan melupakan segala kegembiraan y aku inginkan buat diriku.. Kerana kebahagian  aku bukan milik aku sendiri... Kerana kegembiraan aku itu adalah kegembiraan mereka... Anak2 ku.
Aku tahu.... Allah pasti tidak mengizinkan aku bahagia sendiri... Dan aku pasti Allah tidak mahu aku menjadi org y munafik!!! 
Syukur... Aku masih waras dan aku berjanji akan terus berusaha untuk tidak menjadi seperti mereka2 yg menyakiti aku... Aku juga berusaha untuk melupakan kepahitan itu dan Cuba untuk memaafkan mereka2 yg telah mencalarkan dan juga merobekan jiwa dan perasaanku.... Kerana aku x inginkan lagi Jd pendendam!!!! 
Ya Allah ya tuhan ku... Aku bermohon keampunan dan keredhoan mu... Kau tunjukkan lah aku jln y kau redhoi.... Sesungguhnya hanya engkau y maha mengetahui. Amin Ya Robbal Alamin

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Masa

080513... Genap sudah tujuh tahun usia bujang bongsuku. Adam Ezham. Orangnya periang!! Melihatnya membesar membuatkan aku lebih mengerti ttg hidup dan impian.
Dulu tahun 2006, aku mengalami pergolakan hidup y mmg aku rasa bukan semua bisa menghadapinya.. Perit dan parutnya masih terasa.. Mujur ada Adam. Dia penawar duka lara y aku alami.
Sedari awal aku mengandungkan sibujang kecilku ini.. Pelbagai peristiwa y menimpa. Namun aku menjadi lebih tabah kerana setiap kali aku menangis.. Adam y masih berada do dlm perutku berintraksi denganku. Adam x pernah meninggalkan aku menanggung kesusahan n keresaham hati.
Dan kini.. Adam semakin membesar. Aku bangga kerana menjadi ibu kepadanya. Happy Birthday B... Mummy love U ❤ so very much 😍





Sunday, April 14, 2013

Day Dream

Helllll NO!!!! We x sleep at day time !!! Over sleep invite nightmare... Crash my head n heart tooo.... Soo let work n keep working!!! Make my self bz make me stop n x have time for dreaming ;)
#gudLuckToMySelf

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

When we have to let it go....

I have a dream..... My dream is u.... I want my dream to be real.. But like people said... Nice to dream... But the fact is not beautiful as wat we dream. So... We have to accept wat is already written to us... Gud or bad we have to deal wth it..
When we have to keep going... We have to stop thinking... We do need to walk.. To hop.. To run n we need to keep going... Till we found a save place for us to stay...
It's hurt when we have to let It go But it's still hurt if u keep it ... Coz dreams is not belongs to us... It's belong to devil who like to cheat on us... If u trust ur dream... Means u trust In devil ...

Sunday, March 31, 2013

Siapa Kita

Susah untuk kita mengenal siapa dia.... Perlukah dia wujud dlm hidup kita. Berbaloikah kita bersama dlm hidup ini.. Berapa banyak yang perlu kita korbankan untuk bersama....
Apa yang Ada pun sudah cukup membebankan... Rasanya tak perlulah kita menambah apa yang tak perlu... Cukup kita membaik pulihkan kepincangan itu. Menambah yg kurang... Dan membuang apa yang terlebih.
Itulah yg ingin aku perbuat... Ingin aku memperbaiki kekurangan diri yang ada... Dan aku Ingin membuang segala yang x elok yg Ada padaku.
Mmmmmmmm.... Perkara pertama yg harus aku buat ialah...

MAKE A LIST!! Harus tulis apa yang aku mau. Tulis segala impian dan hajat aku. Sekurang2 nya aku Kena Ada 25 perkara dlm senarai.... Huhuhuhuuuu... Apa yg ditunggu lagi.... Jooooooommmmmmmmmmmmm !!! Masa for make a lisssstttttttt... 😝

~ my loves ~

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